final destination: unknown...

yeah. so as, i'm trying feverishly to figure out tha features and basic workings of my newly downloaded BMP Studio program, i realize that i no longer have a final destination. i don't have an answer to that "what do you wanna be?" question anymore. and for some odd and slightly frightening reason, i'm not worried. :/

intially when i started school, i wanted to be a financial analyst and/or private financial advisor and let people pay me to tell them tha best way to spend their money. i thought it would be awesome, since i'm so grand at math it usually comes exceptionally easy to me. ---but then i got wind of tha horrendous ACCOUNTING classes that were required to get to tha even MORE HORRENDOUS finance classes. and then i actually MET a financial advisor, he said his work hours were varied between 45-70hrs/wk and his clients could contact him whenever, wherever. and he really didn't have a personal life. he was 28yrs old with a long time girlfriend that actually lived in another COUNTRY!!! so he really, didn't have a life outside of his job. and i talk too much to have a job like that. i need social interaction with other people on tha daily or i get really... mean, to say tha least.

then, i thought about it...i love to write. i love to express myself through words. i like to share my opinions on the world through my writing, hence this bad ass blog. :) ---so, i then decided that JOURNALISM was tha way to go. ahhh, yes. writing articles on music, fashion ...whatev i wanted and getting paid for it. AWESOME. and for some reason, tha salary for entry level writers sucked more than public school teachers and though, i want a job that i would LOVE waking up and going to every morning, i would also like to be able to support myself and my son. sheesh. lol.

so then it was PR. marketing and public relations. i have sooo much experience in these fields because that's ALL i did while i was in atlanta. promote, write, think, devise and market. on breaks, when i came back to charleston, my mom would bounce marketing ideas off of me and we would either come up with some kind of effective promo material or means of marketing whatev event, service and most recently, product to her target audience. i've done everything from passing out flyers at 3AM, to hosting parties and special events for my old college, to writing press releases for my moms company. i was doing a lot for very little to NO pay; but it was cool, cuz i REAALLY like it. ---then for some reason, unbeknownst to me at this time, i wanted to do radio. i wanted to get into radio and tv production.

BROADCAST journalism ...it is. and that's where i'm kinda at, right now. i'm allegedly taking classes this summer in radio/tv broadcasting... but it's not that i don't WANT to do it. it just seems...like FOREVER before i'll ever finish and i kind of want to start something now. Blame my impatience on tha microwave, instant messenger and text msgs. i'm a Generation Y'er. i can't help it. :/

i know SEVERAL college graduates who are UNEMPLOYED or not employed in tha field that spent 4+ years slaving for a degree in. marketing degrees. theatre degrees. sociology degrees. psychology degrees. history degrees. and NOBODY'S working where they want to work. so i'm thinking if i meet tha right person, and yall know i like talking to random people about any and everything then ...maybe i can just start at tha bottom and work my way ...to tha TOP! in tha meantime, i'll stay in school and acrue STUPID amounts of debt and pray that i can find a career that'll afford me a comfortable life and tha ability to pay off my loans.

solution: it's not about WHAT you know, it's about WHO you know!! so get to KNOW some-gotdamn-body! shit...

mixx dat!